" Burning " ...

It burns so bad when you're pushing me to someone else...
It's like you don't love me anymore...
It's like you don't want me anymore...
Ha...who am I kidding of course you don't...
But you don't have to keep shoving it on my face that you'll never love me again...
I don't want anyone else...
I want you...
And if you meet someone else I'll just die in silence with a smile on my face...
And if I never have you...
I will go to my grave wanting you...
Loving only you...

" Never Happening " ...

I just got asked out today at my gym.
He does a few classes with me.
I told him that my heart was still another's.
And he said that he understood and now we're just mates.
Mates.
That is such a simple word.
But when used correctly.
It could stab you in the heart.
And despite the fresh open wound...
You stand by your decision to love...
You choose love...
Because these feelings are forever...

" I Love You " ...

Since I have to say this to you everyday here it is...good morning and I love you...

" The Friend " ...

I guess that I'm not seen that way anymore...

A mate... 

A friend... 

That's all I'll ever be... 

Nothing more... 

It's my fault for putting this on my own... 

I pushed and pushed... 

And now it's just gone... 

Forever... 

My feelings shall stay till the day I die... 

Nobody shall ever know... 

Because that's the best thing to do... 

When they deserve SO much better than you... 

Tell nobody about these feelings... 

I'll take it to my grave... 

" Mistakes " ...

Everyone makes mistakes...
It's how we own upto them that defines us...
Defines who we are...
Defines our mark in this world...
Love is a battle...
I've been fighting for a long time now...
It's a fight that I am never giving up on...
It's a fight that defines me...
I've made a lot of mistakes...
But I believe that this is what defines me...
How I own up to my mistakes...
By fighting...
And never giving up...
Because that's what I know...
And that's what I believe in...
That's what defines the person that I am...

" People " ...

Sometimes I just don't understand people...
I love you unconditionally...
And you just don't see it...
Someone you haven't even talked to for years...
And they're on your mind all of the time...
They're the ones that left you...
All it took you...
Was a day to forget me...
A day to replace me...
A day...
Was that all I was to you...?
Worth to you...?
I'm not saying that I will take that place...
But why promise me all of that bullshit and then just not care...?
Why give me expectations...?
Heck !! Why even say anything at all...?
When you KNOW that I was just worth...
A day...
A day...
A day...

" Pushing Away " ...

You said that I couldn't push hard enough...
You said you'd never fall...
I cry alone because you went away...
Yet I wanted to push you astray...
Yes I pushed you away from me...
But only because darkness is all I see...
You don't need me...
I'm nothing but a burden...
Without you all I am...
Is falling...
You don't need to know that I crave you everyday...
You don't need to know that I need you every second...
All you need to know is that I'm fine...
As far as you know I'm strong...
And I don't need you...
I hide behind a curtain of lies...
I hide behind the blind truth...
That I cannot live without you...
But without me you are best...
Without me you can move forward...
You have other priorities...
And I need you to know that...
You said I couldn't push...
And I'm lost without you...
But you got pushed away...
I succeeded...
And I just cannot wait for your return...