" Stop Hurting Myself " ...

Everyone always said that I deserve better...I always fought...I was always with them at their WORST no home nothing...I was always there...I am unable to support financially and I hate myself for that...but she said just being there was enough and I always was...I NEVER wasn't...NEVER left...and now it's not good enough...when they found out about me...they hit me they isolated me from their lives...they never spoke to me...I got hit everyday...but I still found a way to be with her...to talk to her...I risked a lot...I fought...I never just listened to them and gave up...never...but I am unappreciated...I'm abused...insulted...I hate my life...constantly being blamed...constantly being abused...yet broken when she's not in my life...I just never want to exist...I never deserve love...I don't deserve anything...I just want to be dead...