" Hate " ...

I have never hate anything in my life before...
Never hated getting molested...
Never hated cancer for taking away my angel...
Never hated when my brother left...
But one thing that I hate...
Right now...?
The fact that I can never hate...
I fucking hate the fact that I never hate...
I want to hate fucking cancer for stealing my one true love...
I want to fucking hate the fact that my innocence was stolen from me way before I even hit puberty...
I want to hate the fact that some asshole stole from my brother and now he's jobless...
I want to FUCKING hate my heart for loving...
But I can't...
I just love her so fucking much...
That it hurts...
I...
Fucking...
Love...
Her...
:'(...