" Just Deal With It " ...

I'm dealing with everything...
Not saying...
Or even doing anything...
Because the one thing that I could never lose...
Are my angels...
No matter what...
More nights of just in bed...
Stopped driving because I use a lot of petrol and stuff...
So I just lay in bed...
Nightmares again...
And since that talk about my virginity...
I have just been constantly thinking of my rape...
Over and over again...
You see that's why I feel SO uncomfortable with anything in me...
The tampon felt super weird...
And that moment just repeats in my head...
How he put it in...
How it felt...
How I felt...
Over and over again...
I just don't even feel a thing...
I'm numb...
My heart is numb...
Not feeling loved...?
Ywah well SUCK IT UP...
For my angels...
I'll suck it up...
To keep them...
I'll just deal with it...
Deal...
Deal...
Deal...