" Bleeding " ...

My heart just feels like it's bleeding... 

We made sweet love last night and it was MAGIC... 

Magic... 

I'm SO in love with her... 

Drank last night... 

Why...? 

I don't know everything is just so confusing... 

I love her but I cannot have her... 

She loves me but she cannot have me... 

I just do not know... 

I'm just so lost right now... 

But I was fucking jealous last night... 

If my first love got married you know what...? 

I wouldn't even feel a thing... 

In fact I would attend it and celebrate it... 

Yes that hurt... 

Stung SO bad... 

I mean like... 

A dream...? 

Come on man... 

It just fucking hurts...