" Numb 2 " ...

Just spending the whole day in bed today...
Just so numb inside...
I spent the whole day putting on a face for people...
Otherwise I have to talk and if I do I will just break down...
The only people who know are Rewan and Habab...
Everything...
They know that I'm the asshole in this whole situation...
They still love her...
Which is important...
Just because I am their friends and i'm the one who screwed up they should know...
I'm just so hurt inside right now...
Hurt...Numb...?
Who knows...
I just wanna hide away forever...
Spoke to Thatha today...
I miss him...
I miss how it used to be...
How I was always his little girl...
I'm just so dead inside right now...
Why did he have to leave me...?
Why...
Why...
Why...