" The Pact " ...

So...when I was talking about making a pact for my mates...
I actually meant with her...
Her and me...
Till the end of the summer...
I wanna do that like SO bad...
But...
I'm just SO scared...
Because this pact isn't a "sure" thing...
Okay so from my side...
It's all good...
But what if she starts dating someone...
But meets someone that she loves in that way...
The hope given and then CRUSHED...
Yes...
This is giving me hope...
And IF that happens and the pact fails...
I WOULD JUST DIE INSIDE...